I haven’t posted anything in a while. I don’t have a good reason for not posting either. I guess I really have just been focusing on actually living my life now. I don’t know if it was because of my quick recovery, but I feel like I should have all this figured out and I don’t. But then I also remember it hasn’t even been two months since my surgery. Everything was jut going so well for a while in the beginning and now shit’s hitting the fan… literarily. I still haven’t gotten to order any supplies from anywhere, so right now I’ve been surviving off of starter kits that Hollister keeps sending, upon our request. I can’t seem to stop my leaks to save my life. Everything I do doesn’t work, everything my mom (a nurse) does doesn’t work, everything my ostomy nurse does doesn’t work! I have watch video after video and read blog after blog about stoping leaks, but every one of them says pretty much the same things. Use paste, use rings, use moldable paste, use convexity wafers, try this, try that. I feel as though I have exsausted all of my options. I made sure I wasn’t pancaking, I cut my wafer correctly, I use paste, I use powder, my skin is clean, I’ve tried adhesive tape on the sides of my wafer, I’ve tried rings and paste at the same time, I’ve tried applying pressure evenly around my stoma, I’ve tried cutting my wafer just big enough to fit my stoma (I gained a blister from that which hurts like hell), I don’t know what to do anymore and now more then ever I’ve really been questioning if I should’ve made this choice or was I better off suffering, but at least I wasn’t as stressed as I am now. N
I think that’s why I haven’t posted in a while. Everything I post becomes negative. No good news to share. So I guess I’ve been trying to focus on the good things in my life. Anyway I said that I was leaving behind hospitals in 2015 so I am, 2016 will be a hospital free year for me. To my best ability I will stay out of hospitals this year. I’m currently looking into this all-natural stuff called Plexus. There is this package where I can get a dissolving powder that helps put nutrition, that I’m not getting in my diet, into my body through out the day, along with a probiotic that helps put good bacteria into my stomach/intestines and it also has an anti-fungal to help fight off any fungus or bad bacteria I have in my stonach/intestines, and a colon flush. It’s a capsule that I take at night and it helps heal and repair any damage my stomach/intestines might have and helps (naturally) remove any toxins that are in my stomach/intestines. So hopefully this package works well for me, because I could really use a win right about now.
Hold on tight